Jeremiah is in bed.
I am exhausted; physically, emotionally, spiritually.
Today was challenging. By 10:30 Jeremiah was on his 4th pair of big boy underwear and I had cleaned up 4 puddles off of the floor. I have no idea if this is normal or if despite his psychological readiness to use the potty his physical readiness has just not caught up. After a tearful phone call to Aaron we decided that we will wait for big boy underwear until after Christmas. Until then we are back to just sitting on the potty first thing in the morning, after nap, and before bath and if he asks to. I just can't handle more than that right now. So, no more potty talk for the time being!
I went into work from 1 - 4 while Cherise was here. And there was stress there as well.
And tonight Jeremiah just seemed very negative and strong willed. Literally every question I asked was answered with "no, no, no." Bathtime was a struggle as was bed time.
I just sat on the couch and ate the last piece of pumpkin pie and prayed. What am I doing? I am not being the mother that I should be.
Then I remembered the verse,
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Cor. 12:9
I was reminded that my strength is not sufficient for this task of being a wife, mother, director. Only by relying on God's grace and strength will I be able to extend grace to those around me and have daily joy.
I think it is beautiful that God gives us what we need and does not expect us to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and use our own strength.
Tonight my prayer is that I will rely on His grace tomorrow.