Motivation (the lack thereof)

It is Monday morning again. Inevitable.

I am struggling this morning to get going. After a fun weekend (scroll down for pics) all the household chores are staring me in the face and I just can't bring up any enthusiasm for the tasks ahead. At some point I also have to make it to the post office (always an adventure with Jeremiah) and the library. It doesn't help that Nathaniel was up from 2-4 this morning and somewhere in my sleep fogged brain I remember getting up with Jeremiah too at some point.

Last week was a hard week. I was very impatient with Jeremiah and I'm sure that I was not always a Godly, loving parent. I know that I was not a loving and Godly wife either. At our church we always have communion on the last Sunday of the month at an evening pot-luck meal and service. In preparation for communion we have a time of confession of sin.

We sang the following song which was like a balm to my soul and I am reminded today to speechlessly trust God's mercy and boundless grace. Praise God that my salvation does not depend on what I do but on what God has done for me!

God, Be Merciful To Me

God, be merciful to me, On Thy grace I rest my plea;

Plenteous in compassion Thou,Blot out my transgressions no;

Wash me, make me pure within,Cleanse, O cleanse me from my sin.

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My transgressions I confess, grief and guilt my soul oppress;

I have sinned against thy grace, and provoked Thee to Thy face;

I confess Thy judgement just, speechless I Thy mercy trust.

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I am evil, born in sin; Thou desirest truth within.

Thou alone my Savior art, teach Thy wisdom to my heart;

Make me pure Thy grace bestow, wash me whiter than the snow.

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Broken humbled to the dust, by Thy wrath and judgement just,

Let me contrite heart rejoice and in gladness hear Thy voice;

From my sins O hide Thy face, blot them out in boundless grace.

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Gracious God my heart renew, make my spirit right and true;

Cast me not away from Thee, let Thy Spirit dwell in me;

Thy salvation's joy impart, steadfast make my willing heart.

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Sinners then shall learn from me, and return O God to Thee;

Savior all my guilt remove, and my tongue shall sing Thy love;

Touch my silent lips O Lord, and my mouth shall praise accord!